Time has been moving along at a steady pace. It doesn’t seem like over a year since I’ve written here, but it has been.
A lot of beautiful things have happened, and a lot of stressful things. But I’ve found myself stuck with words. They just haven’t wanted to come. This isn’t a new thing, I have been stuck for several years and it has been frustrating. I’m working on a writing project now–a book that has been in my head for some time– and the ideas are there. The knowledge of where the story goes is there. It’s just when I sit down to write nothing comes.
In December our lives ended up taking a turn that we hadn’t expected. I’m still stressed out by it. Every day I feel this weight of anxiety sitting on my chest and I grasp at things hoping I can control what happens next. But you can’t control what happens next. So I started using CBD and it helps some. I vape it, and it comes in different flavors which is fun. I call it air dessert, because some of the flavors remind me of foods like cake or cookies. Since being diagnosed with Celiac disease last year I haven’t really been able to eat those foods so the vape flavors are fun.
I’m trying to get above it all so I can finish this book. I have goals. And a deadline. And a best friend to sit next to at signings and be goofy with. We are Lucy and Ethel… but we write books. I will meet this deadline.
There are a lot of things to update on, but too many to write about now. I just wanted to get back here to my online space and put something down. I have a goal this year to write in my blog regularly and if I don’t start now I will never do it. So. Here I am.